It is so easy for me to get lost in my feelings. I can get wrapped up at anger of the frustrating choices my kids make, or saddened at the unfair circumstances they encounter. I can become so focused on fear of a virus, a response to my stance on a vaccine or my political affiliation, or even how people might respond to what I write, and these thoughts begin to spiral.
What holds your thoughts captive?
Maybe it’s a pending diagnosis
the unknowns of an upcoming surgery
side effects of a vaccine
A loved one battling COVID
the loss of someone that leaves a hole in your heart
a loved one’s addiction
the safety of your kids in an unsafe world
trauma from your past.
No matter the circumstance, focusing on it won’t change it. Spending all of your time and energy focusing on the pain, fear, hurt, worry, or anger of something will manifest anxiety, depression, isolation, and create a whole new you.
This is not the new creation the Lord wants you to be. There is a different way. He wants us to turn to Him fully and raw with the pains and trauma of life. This doesn’t mean He will heal all diseases, perform every miracle, or change the suffocating circumstances that seem to close in, YET He will center you and manifest a space of peace and rest in the middle of the storm. He will being people to you to pray for you and over you.
I write from a place of understanding and empathy. I write from a place of experiencing deep pain, hurt, trauma, depression, anger, shame, and sadness. But I also write from a place of finding eternal hope, faith, peace, rest, and comfort that isn’t available in this world.
Think today, where are my thoughts focused? You and I may not be able to change our circumstances, but we have the power to change our focus and where we are putting our energy.
Prayer: Dear Lord, Lead me back to you. Take my thoughts captive and give me the strength to give my pain to you. Give me the peace of knowing I can lean into you and allow you to carry me through this season, this walk in the world. Lord, you are unchanging and you promise me rest and peace in a world that offers neither. Today I claim that truth and turn to you. Amen.
“Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.”
“Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time he may exalt you, casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you. Be sober-minded; be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour. Resist him, firm in your faith, knowing that the same kinds of suffering are being experienced by your brotherhood throughout the world. And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you. To him be the dominion forever and ever. Amen.”
1 Peter 5:6-11